I think I am going to wait until I get my approval on my band surgery. Then I will explain why and I think you will understand if you have been in the icky place of waiting for approval that I am in now.
But I did do something last night.
Something I didn't think I was ever going to do...
I told my sis in law about my surgery possibility. It just kinda slipped out...
And... my sis in law didn't make a big deal of it.
I know she will tell my brother and it will be interesting to see what he has to say.
Heres the reason why this is a big deal...
My bro and his wife are "the beautiful people", the ones everyone knows exist, but seem to only appear on tv or movie sets. For them it is real.
To give you an idea- this is exactly what my sis in law looks like (with no extensions and no make up though):
And I am not joking ... or exaggerating. I haven't thought of a movie star that looks like my brother yet, but I will try. These two are the people who don't have to worry about their weights and I know for my brother he never has. We are around them all the time because we live only two blocks from them and it is a bittersweet relationship for me because I am a bad person. I am envious and I have a hard time with comparing myself to them. I strive to not be like this... BUT I AM.
I asked them not to tell my parents.
I am not ready for that.
Hmmmm. I had something else to post, but I can't remember what it is right now.
So, I will just end with a silly pic of me and the Hubs from the other night. (Oh, he isn't being a dick anymore. Our insurance thing is supposed to be fixed tomorrow. And if you can't tell- I am not the easiest person to live with... sometimes I might overreact a teensy weensy barely noticeable little bit.)
And he loves me anyway.