I know I haven't mentioned it, but I am graduating from college in a couple weeks and it freaks me out. Really freaks me out. I am afraid. I don't even know why.
I have been accepted into a Master's program for fall, so I am not even done with school, so it is something more.
I think I am used to being the loser. I am used to not achieving things and being a let down to myself and those around me. I have two weeks left and feel like I could fail. Fifteen years of college to get a four year degree- and TWO weeks is feeling impossible.
So- what is wrong with me? I am guessing that whatever this defeatist thing is- its probably got
ALOT to do with my weight too.
I am about as stressed as I have ever been- I have one big paper and one big project to finish- with a bunch of little projects to finish as well. I can't get off the computer to save my life. My eyes burn and I feel like an antisocial freak. BUT, I have TWO weeks left.
I wonder
if, I mean when I graduate if a switch will turn in my brain? Will I suddenly not be
ok with being the black sheep in the family? Will I think I am worth achieving more?
Wow- I get one follower - and now I am so reflective. :)