Hi everyone! I came home this morning from the best Holiday weekedn I have had in a long time! I am so proud of myself- I found a two mile walk and did it twicw while we were gone.
I also ate relatively well, so that helped too!
I was concious of being a mom that played with my son and we had a good time together!
The weekend went so fast, but it felt good to be "present." Does that make sense? There was even a moment on the beach- with the son shining down on me and the wind blowing through my hair... that I stopped and kinda meditated for a little bit. It felt like life was good.
I was even in a good mood this morning! We woke up at 6am to drive the hour and a half back from the cabin. It was horrible traffic, but I smiled and didn't swear once. I dropped my son off at school and was speeding to work and got pulled over!!! That didn't even dampin my mood. I just thought,"well, I was speeding." and waited for my ticket. Get this- I didn't get one!!! The policeman just gave me a warning. That never happens to me! I was giddy and laughing the whole way into work.
And now, here I sit. The stress is pounding in my chest. I am tired and droopy and miserable.
This job is all wrong for me.
And yet I stay because my hours are great and I make really decent money for working 3/4th time.
Ugh.
Anyone have any advice? I could really use it.
Existing With Trauma
11 months ago
Wish I had some sage advice on the work issue, but I don't. I continue to stay with a job I love but the pay isn't quite as much as we really need so we barely stay afloat. But I stay because I love what I do. I guess you either love your job and something is wrong in one aspect or you dislike it but something keeps you there.
ReplyDeleteGlad you had such a nice weekend though.