On another note- I have decided not to hide the surgery... I am not "telling" people so to say, but I was telling someone about something funny on a test I had to take for my psych analysis and she asked why I had to do that. I basically told her "I am looking at having a surgery this summer." She is a nurse and said - oh, no need to say anything else. I wonder if that means she didn't want to get too personal OR if she knew it was part of weight loss surgery application?
Also- my hubs and I had a big fight today. It makes me sad. I am looking for some sort of approval from him on how I look and he doesn't know what to say. I hope I can get the surgery so I can just feel normal again... even average. I am tired of looking at other people and always asking myself- "Is she bigger (or smaller) than me?" If there is anything I miss about being thinner, it is not constantly thinking about my weight.
Hrumpfh... and its Sunday. I dislike Sunday nights. It means Monday is right around the corner. :( Ah well. One day closer to graduation I guess.
Thanks for posting a comment on my blog. I will definitely keep my fingers crossed for you. Although I have to tell you, and it's not your fault, but every time I come across someone who hasn't been banded yet I think maybe, just maybe, I'll be getting banded before this person. Then I go to their blog and...nope, they've gotten their date and it's before mine. Gosh darn it. Oh well, just more info gathering and living vicariously I can do. Hope you get your approval soon. By the way, love your stress reduction kit. :-)
ReplyDeleteI got here from Bonnie's blog. I am right where you are right now oh the waiting... It does nothing more than SUCK! I completely understand not being able to plan anything for myself without knowing, I think that this is the worst part. Everyone keeps telling me that approval will come...
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